My favorite part of my cycle is 3dpo

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Why, you might ask?  The beginning of my cycle is filled with cramps, blood, and crankiness.  I am always angry that I have yet another failed cycle on my hands and I have another long cycle ahead of me filled with supplements, drugs, blood draws, and pee sticks.  Normally I pick a fight with my husband during this time and then cry.  Come on, it's the crashing hormones.  Very predictable, I am. 

The few weeks before ovulation always seem to take forever.  It is a constant guessing game trying to figure out if the line is dark enough on the opk and if the smiley is real or a fake-out.  Oh and also with the Mucinex I have to drink lots of water, but then deprive myself of water for 4 hours so I can test.  It is enough to drive even the sanest of individuals completely mad.  Are we having enough sex?  Is every other day good or is every day better?  What about 2 times a day?  What if I he is tired?  Plans for this time of the month?  Nope.  My husband and I have a date with our bed and some Pre.Seed. Then once the opk is positive I stress out about my temps.  Are they headed north as they should be?  Will I get cross-hairs or will I be the unlucky recipient of an anovulatory cycle?  Did we have sex enough and at the right times?

The last part of the cycle is probably the worst part.  (Over)analyzing every symptom.  Imagining even more symptoms.  Always feeling implantation even though it was probably just gas.  Feeling bloated and crampy and disgusting with no energy to boot.  Is my chart triphasic?  Was that an implantation dip?  How does my chart compare to preggo charts?  Stocking up on FRERs and trying to decide when to test or if a blood test will be necessary.  Looking at pictures of positive pregnancy tests just to see 2 pink lines.  Seeing a stark white line on the test, but having "experts" tweak it because there maybe, just maybe is a hint of a line.  Oh wait, nope that is just an evap line.  WTF.  Then having AF show up and starting the whole cycle again.  How exhausting it is just writing this.

This is why my favorite time of my cycle is 3dpo.  It is on this day that FF gives me cross-hairs so that I can be proud that my body did something right and ovulated like it was supposed to.  I have the possibility that this cycle just might work out.  The possibility that maybe, by the graces of God, one of his best swimmers met up with my healthy, mature egg and cells started to divide properly and then decided to implant.  The possibility that this might be our son or daughter in he or she's earliest form.  The possibility that we might be able to (finally) start our little family that we have been praying for.  I am always filled with so much hope for the future.  That maybe I might not have to continue with this cycle after cycle routine for a while.  How nice would that be?   One can dream, right?  :-)

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12 Responses to “My favorite part of my cycle is 3dpo”

  1. I agree. It is a magical time during the cycle. It seems as if, just maybe, the planets will align. Hopefully, this cycle is your cycle.

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  2. I feel the very same way! Today is 3 dpo for me as well and got my crosshairs today. Hoping this is your cycle! (and mine too!)

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  3. This post makes me remember the year that I feel like all I did was watch the calendar. It's so frustrating. I don't live by the calendar anymore, but though it is easier most of the time the other side of it I feel like I should be tracking and testing and dragging the hubs to the bed every other day. I wish it was easier for us all! `ICLW #61

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  4. "I like to pick a fight with my husband and then cry". I swear next time someone asks me what my hobbies are I'm saying just that.

    Agreed - it's that magical time in the cycle where you're done with all the work and not concerning yourself with driving yourself crazy yet.

    I cross everything on behalf of your gorgeous uterus.

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    1. The poor guys...I mean on one hand they don't have to deal with the physical torture that we do, but then again, they do have to deal with us and our crazy ever-fluctuating hormones. :-0

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  5. I'm with ya! that is a good time. I like all of the days around ovulation, the dreams, the hope, the possibilities, the estrogen high!! Love it.

    I also like to pick a fight with my husband and cry, do you think we could start a club around that?

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    1. Haha yes, we need a club for this!!

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  6. Never thought about it that way, but you're right! Of course, I'm always wishing I had an answer already (even at 3dpo) because I'm not sure I'm EVER satisfied at any point during a cycle!! Haha.

    ICLW #27

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  7. Ahh, I LOVE when FF adds the crosshairs! It's a time to just relax and say, okay, we were right on the timing, we've done all we could, and now we'll just wait patiently and see. Well, wait patiently until a few days later when it's time to start analyzing every single little sign and symptom!

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  8. This is the deadly TTC cycle! So glad I have Moose this month, something to take my mind off of it. No matter how hard I try not to go crazy looking for positive OPKs, crosshairs, and HPTs... I still do!

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  9. Alright, what kind of Mucinex did you take and how much? What days did you take it? I'm going to start taking Femara 5mg CD5-9 starting Friday. I already have Preseed (plan to use) and OPKs...and I've decided we're going to try SMEP again! Anything else you did?

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    1. I took the regular kind (not the one with decongestant and not the extra strength) in the AM and the PM. I drank a ton of water with it too, which made the opk testing hard, but manageable. I also laid with my hips elevated for 15 minutes after and did pineapple core 4-8 dpo. Not sure if that helped, but it is worth a try!

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