So.... today is my due date and I am not really any closer to giving birth from what I can tell.  I really did not think that I would make it to 40 weeks and I thought that I would have gone into labor by now, but I guess I was wrong on all accounts.  I know that lots of FTM go after their due dates, but it is still kind of disheartening especially since I am not having any contractions to speak of.

Last night I started developing a rash under my left breast that is so super extremely itchy.  I put some hydrocortisone cream on it, but it does not seem to be doing anything.  I called the doctor and they suggested that it might be a yeast infection.  They told me to go out and get some M.onistsat and use it topically until I see them at my next appointment on Monday.  This rash goes lovely with my elephant feet/ankles and bluish belly button.

I have been going for walks every day with my dog.  We walk about 45-50 minutes through my hilly neighborhood.  It is a miserable time for me.  It is so hard to walk and I am so slow.  A few weeks ago I could cover 2.5-3 miles in this time and now I am just over a mile.  I am not even sure why I keep walking every day since it is miserable and it is not helping to induce labor.  I guess just for my dog.  I feel bad for him being in the house with me all day.  His life is going to change a lot in the next few weeks and I think he knows it now.   Poor guy.

I am also getting really anxious about the baby's movement.  He still moves quite a bit, but I feel like the times where he is quiet are starting to freak me out more and more.  Yesterday after my walk I laid down (on my left side) on the couch to rest and started a kick count.  The baby refused to move.  I poked him a little and still nothing.  I started to get worried so I changed to a sitting position and then I felt his familiar jabs right in the middle of my belly.  He moved pretty constantly after that so I think he was just sleeping from after my walk, but I will be so happy when I don't have to worry about that aspect of pregnancy anymore and I can see him.

I am so ready.  So very ready.  I am not sure what is taking him so long to make his appearance.  It is starting to make me crack up, honestly (and I don't mean with laughter).  How the heck did I get through the last 9 months without going crazy.  I feel like this last week has been the hardest so far.  Working from home has been a blessing and a curse.  I am tethered to my computer all day.  I just want to stop working now, but I still have stuff to do still.  I feel like I have no idea what day of the week it is since I have really only left the house to go for a walk each day and that is it.

Ok I'm done now.  I feel bad complaining about this stuff because honestly a year ago I would have given anything and everything to have a yeast infection under my left breast at 40 weeks pregnant.  Hormones are a crazy thing though and totally mess you up and make you feel things you never imagined you would feel.  Also maybe the lack of sleep is starting to cause issues with my mental state?  I don't know.  Anyways I am going to be doing the same old thing at least until my confirmed induction on 4/18.  I know that next week at this time I will for sure be waking up in the hospital and I pray with all my heart that I have my snuggly little boy safe in my arms.