12 weeks

Saturday, September 29, 2012

I can honestly say that this is a post that I was never really sure that I would ever have the opportunity to write.  If you would have asked me back in March if I thought I would ever be able to use myself and 12 weeks in the same sentence I would have really struggled to answer the question.  I am almost in shock that I am here.  So grateful, so happy, but still so nervous.

I cry a little bit on most days, probably due a lot to my wacky hormones.  Usually the crying is due to my thankfulness of where I am right now and thinking back to where I was last year at this time.  I also cry out of guilt.  I cry because of my friends that I know that are trying and trying with no luck.  I cry for my friends that continue to experience loss after loss with no explanations.  I cry for my friends that are in pregnancy limbo and waiting for news.  I cry because it is all so unfair.

I struggle with how and when to write updates about this pregnancy.  I know that I want to document this for my memory, as well as for anyone else who might be reading this.  I want to give women who have been dealing with similar situations to my own, hope.  I know I always look to posts regarding early pregnancy.  For some reason it helps me to feel better about where I am.  So here goes with how things are going for me at 12 weeks.

At 12 weeks I am just starting to show.  I can't button my normal pants anymore and have been wearing mostly dresses and stretchy skirts to work.  I bought a band to put over my regular pants, but I have not yet tried it because it has been warm enough to wear skirts/dresses to work.  Maybe next week.

My symptoms at this point mostly consist of nausea most of the day, constipation, & general tiredness.  Also, today my left eye has started twitching.  Not sure if this is or isn't related to pregnancy, but it is very annoying!  I am also still getting up a lot to go to the bathroom and my upper back has been hurting.  I am thinking it is because my small rack, has increased by a size or two and is making me slouch.

My TSH is back to the normal range and down to 1.24 thanks to the meds!  Also, all of my other thyroid tests came back normal (including anti-thyroid antibody), so that is one less thing for me to worry about at this point.  I have another appointment with the endocrinologist at he end of October for my follow-up.

I have my NT exam on Tuesday afternoon.  I am pretty nervous about this.  I know they will do the scan first and then take blood.  I am hoping and praying that everything goes well with this exam because it is taking everything in me not to tell my grandma!  She is the person that I have been wanting to tell about this baby so much.  I know how badly she wants to become a great grandmother.  She knows nothing of our struggles or miscarriages because I didn't want to give her bad news (all she gets at her age is news of people dying or getting terminal illnesses so I have felt the need to protect her).  I will also finally tell my boss if things go well.  Then she will understand why I have been "working from home" a lot lately.

I have been using the doppler once or twice a week since that first night a few weeks ago.  I can now find the baby pretty fast, but not for very long because he (I am thinking boy) moves a lot.  He also kicks.  If you want to see some picture/video updates, click here and then scroll to the bottom.  Please keep my in your thoughts and prayers next week.  

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15 Responses to “12 weeks”

  1. I can't believe you're at 12 weeks already! Funny how someone else's 1st trimester can fly by, but time crawls when you're going through it yourself, huh? I'm so happy you get to experience this and that things are still looking good. I'll be thinking of you next week! ~ hugs ~

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    1. Thanks! You are so right. I feel like time always seems to fly when I am reading other people's blogs, but for me, not so much!

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  2. I will certainly be thinking of you on Tues. You are so sweet to wait to tell your grandmother--I know it's so hard to keep it a secret from ones you love.

    I hope that you continue posting regularly. Survivor's guilt is so strong in this corner of the blogosphere, but know that people will still be reading your posts.

    It is SO cool that you're able to regularly find the baby on the doppler! Take care--I'm sure it is hard as you wait for your scan on Tues.

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  3. I just got diagnosed with Hashimoto's on Friday at my OB's. He redrew blood to make sure but will be putting me on meds soon if it is the same. My TSH in July was 3.4. What was yours? What kind of meds are you on? We have waaaay too much in common lol! Wow...I can't believe you are 12 weeks already...congrats!!

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    1. Mine was 3.28 right when I found out I was pregnant. They put me on 25 mcg of levothyroxine. Seems to be doing the trick! I think miscarriage has made my TSH go out of whack because it was normal during my first pregnancy!

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  4. Happy 12 weeks, D! I am so happy that you've reached this milestone and that you are sharing this stage of the journey with us - you are an inspiration! I will be thinking of you and Tuesday and can't wait to hear how you break the happy news to your grandma. xoxo

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    1. Thanks, Elizabeth! I have been waiting to tell her good news for about a year and a half now. :)

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  5. I can't believe it. Totally crazy insane that you are 12 weeks already! That is so wonderful...

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    1. Sometimes I have to pinch myself, seriously!

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  6. So excited for you! I too have the eye twitching that started about two weeks ago, I think it's pregnancy related but very annoying! Praying your NT scan goes great! I have mine next Wednesday. Exciting and scary at the same time!

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    1. Thanks, Heather!! Glad to hear the eye things is pregnancy related. It still is happening, but not as much as the other day.

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  7. It all sounds like you are doing well. I think you might be at your scan right about now. I am thinking of you and sending all the good vibe love I have!!! I can't believe it is 12 weeks already!! I'm sure it has been forever for you but it seems to have snuck up on me.

    I bet you look adorable with your little tummy coming out! I am still just so happy for you!

    Update us as soon as you can!!!

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