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Overcoming diastasis recti (part 2)

Thursday, April 3, 2014

I apologize that this post is so delayed.  At the time that I wrote the first post about diastasis recti I had wanted to follow-up shortly thereafter with another post regarding how I was dealing with the issue.  I'll update you on my "progress" and where everything stands right now.

Back when I wrote my first post on this subject in September, I had made great progress with my physical therapist.  I was doing regular core exercises that were specifically geared towards people with my condition.  I was running a ton and feeling great.  I felt like I was getting so much better so in November, I joined CrossFit.  For a while I was modifying all of the workouts that had any ab components because the physical therapist told me that they could make the condition worse and un-do all of the work that I put in (sit-ups, v-ups, toes-to-bar, etc).  After a while it started to get embarrassing and decided to disregard what my PT had said.  I always had to modify exercises and always had to explain to others why I was "cheating".  I was tired of it.

One day, during a class, I decided to just go for it.  I felt like my core was pretty strong so I did a whole workout with a component that included "toes-to-bar" except that I did "knees-to-elbows", which is the beginner version of the former workout.  I did the workout and felt ok during it, but that night when I got home, I noticed in the mirror that my stomach looked worse than it had in a long time.  My lower back was also bothering me.  UGH.  After only one workout, my diastasis looked so much worse than it had in months.  How completely defeating.

Since quitting CrossFit, I have been running a lot more.  I started training with a coach again and do weekly intervals with a "team".  I am back in my element!  The only problem is that I still have this annoying ab separation to deal with.  Besides causing some lower back pain, it looks like I am 6 months pregnant every night, which is terrible for my self-esteem.  Last week my Aunt asked me when I was due.  Seriously?  I had really hoped to wear a 2 piece bathing suit this summer, but that isn't going to happen (maybe ever again).  It is crazy that I am 115 lbs, which is lower than I was before I got pregnant, but I have never felt more uncomfortable with my body.

So now I am back to, what I feel like, is square one.  I need to start doing my core exercises from my PT again.  I need to practice getting up and out of bed in the way that she taught me.  I need to start wearing the brace at night again.  I also need to really be strict about what I am eating.  Sugar and wheat tend to make me bloated, which exacerbates the problem.  One girl in a support group that I am in, mentioned that apple cider vinegar helps with bloating.  I tried that one night when I felt very bloated and it worked within 15 minutes (I put 2 teaspoons in water and pounded it...totally gross).  I know it is bad for your teeth though, so it isn't a perfect solution.

For reference, here are some pictures to detail what I am talking about.

Picture #1

On the left is me in June and on the right is me now.  In both of these pics I am "flexing" my ab "muscles".  From this view, things definitely look much improved.

Picture #2
Same pics as above on the left and right.  The middle pic is from me in October, before starting CrossFit.  I think that I looked much better then than I do now.

Picture #3
This is a current photo of me on the right "flexing" and on the left not "flexing".  Anyone with diastasis recti will tell you that the constant need to suck in so you don't look pregnant is exhausting.

Picture #4
This is a current photo of me from the front "flexing".  I have a faint linea negra, some wrinkled skin, a herniated belly button, and a protruding belly with no ab muscle definition (even when "flexing")!  Not what I would call attractive to look at in a 2 piece!

Picture #5
This is a current photo of me from the front, not "flexing".  Not pretty.  

So, the diastasis recti saga continues.  I am going to try to get back into doing my core exercises and doing everything that I was doing before.  I am still not ruling out surgery in the future to stitch things back together, but since we have not closed the baby window, I don't want to go there, yet.  ;-)  I'll check in again on this topic sometime in the summer.  I'd be really interested to hear from others with the same condition.  What have you done to try to correct it?  Have you just accepted that you will never look the same again?  Does it affect your self esteem?  

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