Beta #2 & tears for a blogger friend

Thursday, August 9, 2012

It is hard to be happy for yourself sometimes when you know of someone who is going through something so terrible that you have also been through.  K at Our Growing Gardunn found out that she is losing another precious baby today.  Please go and give her some virtual hugs.  I am completely heartbroken for her.  The complete unfairness of the situation makes me so angry.  Seriously, when is enough, enough?  How much pain and suffering should one person have to go through? :(

It is so hard for me to be really excited about this right now, but I'll give a quick update on my beta #2 from today.  My HCG is now at 2324 (19 dpo) and my progesterone is now at 31.5.  I am again, cautiously optimistic about this as the nurse seemed very happy, once again. 

I am am also hoping and praying that things go well with my first ultrasound on Tuesday morning.  I know that sitting in that waiting room is going to induce a major panic reaction for me and my husband can't make it so I will be all alone.  Does anyone even know what they will (or rather should) be able to see at an ultrasound of around 5 weeks 3 days?  All of my ultrasounds have always been bad so I have no idea what a good one is even supposed to look like.  I have tried to stay away from Google lately.  So far I am doing ok with that.  We'll see how long I can keep that up.

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8 Responses to “Beta #2 & tears for a blogger friend”

  1. stay away from Dr. Google.

    NO idea what you're supposed to see at ultrasounds... surely you can have a friend go with you or someone? No?

    It's going to be awesome and amazing and tear-inducing, that's all I know.

  2. Hi! I found your blog while searching for stories like mine today. I put you in my reader to continue following your story. I hope this baby is your take home baby!

    This probably isn't a big help, since all of my ultrasounds were normal at around five weeks and then they all ended in miscarriage, but a normal ultrasound around the time usually shows a gestational sac and maybe a fetal pole. You may or may not be able to see a heartbeat at this point. In one of my ultrasounds you could see a heartbeat and that pregnancy made it to eleven weeks.

    Sorry, I don't know if that helps or hurts!

  3. Awesome numbers! I wish I could go with you and hold your hand and tell you jokes in the waiting room. How are you feeling?

    1. Feeling ok otherwise. Super tired, hungry, and having really bizarre dreams every night. The one thing that makes me feel better is that this pregnancy feels like none of my others so I am hoping that is a good sign!!

  4. Thank you so much for your kind words. It's been such a tough day. Your numbers look awesome! Like, super awesome! Praying things go well and Tuesday brings great news.. Dr. Google is my worst enemy :)

  5. Just wanted to say thanks for your comments on my blog... it feels great to have the support. I'm also so excited for you! I hope I read nothing but boring, normal pregnancy blog from this point on!!!

  6. I have my fingers crossed for you D! I knew youd get your BFP soon, and I totally understand how you are feeling being so cautious. Just try focus on the happy things too, you don't want to miss out on any part of your pregnancy journey later because you are too busy stressing. :)